Goodness

I was consumed by the compassion in his message. My life flashed before my eyes. I can let go! I can forgive him! I said to myself. With tears of hurt rolling down my cheeks, I saw myself deep inside my heart walking towards Him…However, my efforts proved to be disastrous. I could only manage two or three lines before my mouth got heavy and I couldn’t continue. To make matters worse, one of the brothers pacing up and down beside me, praying effortlessly and with mastery in this strange tongue, cast a look at me. I wanted to sink into the ground in shame. I felt like he had caught me faking it. I thought to myself, “You see, God told him you’re faking it. Now everyone will see you as a liar.” My mind was so naive and open…Eventually, I found Him. How did he find goodness?